Next Stop, Motherhood

As, I sat in one of best friends bathroom starring at the double lines of a pregnancy test, I still wasn’t pregnant! Well I was, but I was in denial. 

“Xaviaaa! Are you okay?” Ms. Lil yelled from downstairs. I quickly snapped out of my trance and began to think rationally. I ran downstairs and began to put on my coat. Ms. Lil asked what the results were and I told her, “Positive, but I need to buy another one to make sure”. She politely stated, “That’s not how that works honey, but okay”! Three pregnancy test later it was still positive.

I had lived life like a “Rich” Auntie that year. I traveled to LA, Houston, Cabo, Miami, Washington D.C., and New Orleans. On November 23rd I found out I’d be the “Rich” Mother of one. So many emotions hit me. I am a planner, I have to make sure things happen when I need them to happen and pregnancy was one thing I had never planned. While other young girls were dreaming about their dream marriage and wedding day, I was being told I there was a strong possibility that I could not have children. At the age of 14, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). Though I was not able to plan like I would have wanted to I strongly believe in God's doesn't give you more than you can handle. 

When I found out I was having a little girl everything in life changed for me. I started remembering my childhood the good, bad and indifferent. I began to look at my current state of life and realized that I wanted to give her more. On Friday, July 29, 2022, I gave birth to the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes on, Aveyah Michelle Marlee Tucker. Upon her arrival I knew that everything would be okay. She brings such a purpose and joy to my life. 


Now if your anything like myself you saw Motherhood and instantly wanted a know who Aveyah's Father is? Which parent does she look like more? Find out on the next, Xavia The Know It All.  


Some motivation I use to tackle daily life as a Mother:  

  • Healthy Woman, Healthy Mother
  • There is no handbook for parenting 
  • A good mom is a trying mom 
  • Heal yourself so that your children won’t need to go to therapy because of you 
  • You can no longer risk it for the biscuit 
  • Every decision you have ever made, will make or are currently making will affect your child 
  • You can do it on your own, but why? 
  • Allow Dad to help and try not to correct him. Just make suggestions
  • There are great Black Fathers 
  • Everyone is always in a state of healing 
  • Becoming a Mother should be your decision and your decision only




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